So lately I’ve been thinking. Which isn’t a good thing because it always leads to a major headache. Is it better to grow up and leave everything that is considered childish behind? Is it better to let people go who have been there for you for years? Is it better to be just a little colder than you used to be?
I feel like.. something in me has changed. Like I’m a little more walled off from the world. You can say I’ve become a little colder but due to recent events it’s no surprise. With home life, work, personal issues, etc. I can feel myself not caring anymore. I mean I guess I’m happier now but only because I was brought to the breaking point.
I don’t know if I’m changing for the better but I’ve changed. There’s no going back to who I was in January. There’s no bringing back that child like wonder of the world. I just can’t see the good in anything anymore.
At any rate I’m a lot happier now than I was last month. I’m a lot calmer too. I don’t get so worked up anymore. Whatever I’ll just take things as they come. Because when you’re confused by what’s real and what’s just show, what you should do and what you are doing, by what’s right before eyes and by what someone is saying. You can only wait and see what comes out of it all.