So lately I’ve been thinking. Which isn’t a good thing because it always leads to a major headache. Is it better to grow up and leave everything that is considered childish behind? Is it better to let people go who have been there for you for years? Is it better to be just a little colder than you used to be?

I feel like.. something in me has changed. Like I’m a little more walled off from the world. You can say I’ve become a little colder but due to recent events it’s no surprise. With home life, work, personal issues, etc. I can feel myself not caring anymore. I mean I guess I’m happier now but only because I was brought to the breaking point. 

I don’t know if I’m changing for the better but I’ve changed. There’s no going back to who I was in January. There’s no bringing back that child like wonder of the world. I just can’t see the good in anything anymore. 

At any rate I’m a lot happier now than I was last month. I’m a lot calmer too. I don’t get so worked up anymore. Whatever I’ll just take things as they come. Because when you’re confused by what’s real and what’s just show, what you should do and what you are doing, by what’s right before eyes and by what someone is saying. You can only wait and see what comes out of it all. 

Little known fact about me is that the very first comic book I bought was a Spider-man comic book. Spider-man is one of my favorite superheroes in the Marvel fandom, just after Cyclops from X-man.

I took the time today to go see this with my best friend, Kat, today and honestly I really liked it. It was… dare I say.. better then the Tobby McGuire film that came out about ten years ago. Now I could be just saying this because I love Emma Stone. Or the fact that the Spider-man suit fit Andrew Garfield really well. 

For being the first Marvel that I’ve seen in good while in the theater I think it’s a total two thumbs up. A must for Spider-man fans, a must for Emma Stone fans. The plot, the acting is all very good too and has convinced me to watch the other Marvel films. Such as Iron Man, Thor and Captain America. All of which I have been iffy on. 

Me and Kat later went out to eat which was fun, and it’s always fun just hanging with her anyways. Really needed the day out since I’ve been feeling lonely? I have no idea why, just have been. But that’s for another post on another when my head isn’t pounding so effing hard. 

So the first picture is of me and Miss Sharon Needles, outside of drag, I met her at the Airport where I work. She was at the bar and I was getting ready to leave when I spotted her there. I nervously walked up to her and word vomited “Hi my name is Kenny and I  looove you!” and shook her hand. She said thank you and nice to meet you. I also asked for a pic to which she said “Sure! just let me enjoy my beer and I will gladly take a picture with you.” so I went back to starbucks and waited. When she walked down the steps and headed over to Starbucks she said “Okay Kenny get ready for your picture!” And we continued to talk about Rupaul’s Dragrace and I continued to make a fool of myself lol I had been up since three am. When I told her this she said “AWWW poor baby, been up since three am? I’ve been up for a fucking week.” lmao 

The second picture is of me, Sharon and my mom. It took Sharon a second to remember who I was but when she did she gave me a huge hug. “OOOh Kenny!” she said. “Hold on! Pause everything!” and she turned to the guys who were selling the merchandise. “Give me a poster!” which he did and she signed it. to Kenny <3 sharon. She told my mom her hair looked cunty and that she was pretty. She also said I was a good guy! And that they needed to find me a good husband and my mom laughed and said “or something” then Sharon said “Well as long as he gets that dick in his mouth” LMFAOO

Sharon, I love you! You’re amazing and I’m glad I got to meet you.  Thank you for the poster and you have a good heart.